Friday, August 22, 2008
If The World's At Large Why Should I Remain? ♥ 8:30 PM
Well hello.
I'm writing from my new dorm room. I don't have internet access right now, so I'm writing in WordPad since I don't have Microsoft Word or anything. So, I'll post this as soon as I get my laptop set up for wireless internet here at the school.
I woke up at 9:30 this morning, which was when I was suposed to leave for Clinton. Oops. I ended up getting here at 11. Shitty. But I got most of my stuff in my room. I got all but two bags of stuff [which are still in my car, in front of St Claire hall] into my room by about 5:30. Ma and I had dinner in the cafeteria after that, and then I was left alone. It's been a very busy day, and I'm fucking exhausted.
I have managed to unload about six boxes of random shit. Almost all of my books are on the shelf, my coffeemaker, fridge, toasteroven, and microwave are all hooked up. I've got cookies, breakfast sammiches, juice, milk, creamer, pop, and water in my fridge. Oh, and butter and cream cheese. And one of the drawers in my closet has chips, bagels, spaghetti-os, and cereal. All of my posters are on my walls. My towels, bathroom shit, school shit, well, all of my random stuff is pretty much put away. I even have some cute black rugs in my room. All I still have to do tonight is put my hoodies and shirts on hangers. Tomorrow, Ma and Gail are coming in to help me set up some shelf things for my bathroom.
So, I feel very alone. I'm sick. I have to sleep on this shitty small bed that is six feet in the air, and I have no friends here and no myspace. I could stay out as late as I want to, but I have no reason to stay out late. I was so excited last night, and now I feel more alone than ever before. It hurts...it really does. So, I'm gonna put in a movie, and hang up my shirts and stuff. Later I'm gonna go out to my car and get my paper bag full of cups and coffee and shit so I can make sure I have coffee tomorrow. Right now, I'm making some oatmeal raisin cookies to have with some milk while I cool down. Clinton has been humid and cloudy and rainy-ish all day, so I've been super over-heated and sick from over working my body all day in this horrible humidity. It doesn't help that I'm pretty lonely. My dorm is cute....even though the assholes here at Ashford moved me to smaller room without notifying me until today. They said it was for someone who was handicapped. HOW THE FUCK DIDN'T THEY KNOW SOMEONE WAS HANDICAPPED UNTIL JUST TODAY? Holy shit am I pissed. I will watch that bitch that stole my room to make sure she's fucking handicapped too. Don't fucking doubt it. And instead of giving me a bigger room to make up for the fact that my room got changed, they moved me to a tiny ass room. Like, a bathroom sized room. My mom and I were so pissed.
I guess I have to deal. Just like all the shit that has gone down in my life lately. School better be fucking dank or I'll be pissed. But, I have pictures of all my friends around me, and I have comfort food and movies and my room smells yummy and I've been sneaking smokes in my room. I'm doing ok I think. I even bought some GellyRoll gel pens today. The kind I used to obsess over when I was at fredstrom. I wish I had a reason to use them.
Well, I'm gonna try and get the rest of this shit done before my meds kick in and I pass out. I'll post this when I get internet, and probably write more out of boredom. Hope everyone is doing well.
Love Always,
Cherry.
The End.